The feelings of loss and loneliness could be the two most worst feelings a person could ever feel. If you could only know wether or not it's really right or wether its fighting for. I just think I hate change and I'm used to him being there. But I know one thing for sure no more excuse calls. I have to stop making up reasons to call him. Make him not only wonder but feel what it would really be like without me.
I went to my IOP (intensive outpatient program) class today. All went well, I have to get my prescription filled, I'm not even positive if my insurance is good anymore. Who knows. I got a letter today saying I need to call. Geodon is the name of it.
I thought about moving to snobsville... but I dont think I am. Maybe some other time. I just got news that my immediate family is moving to Florida... I don't want to move there it's wayyy to hott for my taste. I like the change of season which Indiana gives us. I appreciate the city I grew up in ya know?
I can't believe the Colts lost the superbowl... Thats sooo messed up. I didn't watch the game and I was expecting when I asked who won...everyone would naturally say "The Colts WOO" Well, no the Chargers won. Now I just hope the Patriots don't win. Screw them!!! GO GIANTS!! I am behind you 100%.
Back to me. I don't know how I feel. Wether or not I REALLY want him back. I just think I miss his presence. His love, and constant presence. HaHa at least I'm enjoying my me time. Thats what we needed good ol' me time. It's peaceful without him honestly. And more relaxing. I'm not ready for a new relationship I know that much. But, I am getting out slowly but surely. Talking to old friends and such. I really wonder if he cares what I am doing. Who knows don't really care (yes I do but we can pretend right?) Well so long for tonight and don't do anything I wouldn't do.
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